Last night, I read a post from my friend, Deanna, that made me stop and think. I was floored because it sounded like ME. How could she echo so completely my own thoughts and faults? Deanna, I hope you don’t mind me copying and pasting some of your words, because I think they are worthy of sharing, as a reminder to myself and anybody else out there who may be feeling the same way. Plus, you said it so well! I am constantly amazed that every time I think I’m alone in what I’m feeling or going through, I discover someone else who understands. Someone who has gone through the same thing. Aren’t girl friends wonderful for that?? So, everyone, read on, and insert your own kids names below….
I chose motherhood. It was not forced upon me, I chose it. I’ve even had to fight for it a few times, with every fiber of my being. I chose motherhood because it is a privilege and an honor. I chose motherhood because it is a win-win situation. I have let the negative creep into my life too much, and I suddenly realized that I’ve wasted too much time. Life is precious. Children are precious. They deserve my undivided attention. Next time Miranda shows me a picture she drew, I promise to stop whatever I’m doing, look her in the eye, and tell her I think it’s the most beautiful project ever – instead of not so much as giving it a glance, and then saying, “Good job, but I’m busy right now.” I promise that when Johnny asks if he can help cook dinner, I won’t say, “There isn’t much left to do, but thanks anyway,” I will make up something if I have to, just to have him by my side. I promise that if Jared asks for help with his homework, I won’t say, “Go ask dad because he’s better at math,” I will say, “Sure, let’s sit down and figure this out together.” I will even sit on the floor and play with a block tower with Madilyn – just like I watched my husband do the other day… while I was watching TV.
I promise to make the time. I promise to take the time. We never know what trials await us, and I want to make sure I have taken full advantage of every opportunity to bask in their unconditional love. No, this isn’t a confessional. Just a reminder to myself. “
(Kiwi and Jared)
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