This past week (was it really only a few days longer than a week?!) was the best vacation I’ve had in a long time. Today was the first time in who knows how long since I’ve been sad to see my kids start back to school. Typically, I am eager for all of us to get back on a routine and to get the kids out of my hair so that I can concentrate on work again.
Seven people in a small townhouse tends to get a little crowded, and 5 kids vying for Mom’s attention is not conducive to productive work time.
This break, however, has been different. Instead of feeling crowded in our little space (including 33 hours in our van driving back and forth from Florida) we have enjoyed each other. We’ve played games. We’ve read books. We’ve snuggled under cozy blankets on the couch together.
My focus this year is to achieve balance. As I neared the end of 2011, I found myself in a constant state of anxiety. I felt guilty for spending so much time working, and not enough time simply enjoying my kids. Most nights, I would throw something easy together for dinner, but never enjoyed the act of cooking or eating dinner. It was a chore. My house had become completely out of hand because I never took the time to keep up with the cleaning (because I was always busy working). My kids were watching more and more Netflix to keep them occupied while I was on the computer. I wasted most of my time during the school day because I was exhausted after getting only 4 or 5 hours of sleep each night.
It was a horrible cycle. And I was harboring guilt about all of it.
During the Winter break, I decided to focus my attention on my family and spend time each day doing something relaxing and enjoyable. I got 8 hours of sleep every night. I read books, played games, cooked dinner. I found myself drinking less Coke Zero and eating fewer snacks. I didn’t wake up with constant anxiety. My mind was clearer and I was clearly happier.
I rediscovered my Mommy Mojo. I remembered what I love about being a mom and I was reminded of how much I love to cook good food. I was more patient with my kids, and they in turn were more open and affectionate with me.
But at the same time, I seem to have lost some of my writing mojo. I have stared and stared at my computer screen all morning not knowing where to start. I find myself out of ideas.
I am hopeful that it doesn’t have to be one or the other. I know that it’s always an adjustment to get back into the swing of things after a vacation. I just hope that it’s possible to find my blogging mojo again without losing my Mommy mojo.
It’s possible, right?
Please share your secrets to finding balance in your own life. Apparently, I need some direction!
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